I have so many ideas, all of the time. Rushing around in my head. Inspirations of how I want my life to be. What I hope and dream for. Even these little things that pile up. Projects. Art. Colorful things. Simple things. Clean and uncomplicated things. Like cooking fresh veggies from the garden every day. And baking loaves of lovely bread. Painting walls. Arranging things a certain way. Reupholstering old chairs. Hanging pictures. Looking and feeling fit again. Reading. Making things. Always, always, always making things. These thoughts consume me... I only wish that I were better at putting them into action.
I just found out that I am very deficient in Vitamin D again. It's amazing how much one little vitamin can affect your life. I have zero energy to do anything. I never get anything done that I want to do. I am moody. Unmotivated. Just, bleh. I miss walking in the sunshine. Supplements will be no substitute for the warmth on my skin. But I guess I'll do what I have to do. Anything to feel better than I do right now. Maybe in a month or two, my levels will be up again and I'll be capable of making all of my simple little thoughts a reality. I do hope so.
