My goal of the new year is to have as much fun as possible, and as few responsibilities as I can handle. I'm making some tough decisions in order to achieve this, but I think it'll be well worth it. These past three years have been heavy, with this shadow constantly lingering around me, self-imposed, to be certain. For some reason I have felt the need to hide away and punish myself for all of the difficulties that have been handed to me during my life, even things that I did not directly have control over. Well, I think I've finally been able to release that stuff now. It's time for me to start LIVING and not merely EXISTING! I want to feel lighter, and freer, and above all else, HAPPIER! I want to take stock in all of the good things I have in my life, and start letting the bad stuff slide instead of lingering on it. It seems like every day I've been feeling more and more optimistic about the future. I am learning to embrace the driver's seat and I'm taking control of where I'm headed, rather than letting everything else around me take the lead. This is MY life, and I can make any choice I please to take me where I want to go. It's quite a liberating feeling, indeed...
