Insomnia.

Everything feels wrong. Uncomfortable. I try to arrange things just so, but still, they don't look right. I clean and clean and yet everything still seems dirty. The air feels heavy and gross. My skin so tight and dry and itchy. It's 4:30am and I can't sleep. I toss and turn then give up and watch Netflix for a few minutes. I try to sleep again to no avail. I get up and make a snack. I watch more Netflix. Nothing is working. There's just something in this place smothering me. My sheets and blankets feel disgusting against me. Hot. Weird. Claustrophobic. I don't know what to do to fall asleep. I don't know what to do to feel normal. I don't know how to make this place be what I want it to be. I don't know how to make myself me. All I feel right now is thick and strange and I want it to stop. At least let me sleep for a few hours so I can forget about it for a while... please, I beg of you...