Sometimes we, err, I, try so hard to look for the answers, under every rock, around every corner, in every damned nook and cranny... answers that seem so out of reach, far away and unattainable... that I don't even see them staring me in the face. Not far away at all, and in fact, incredibly fucking obvious. It's so funny to me, knowing what I know now, that I never noticed how they were sitting right there with me all along! But I guess all of those wrong turns, and clamoring, desperately trying to figure out what the hell I should be doing, have made me take some paths I'd have normally never stepped foot on. Pushed my boundaries to the limits, and forced me to explore certain fears and inadequacies. So in the end, I suppose it's all worth it.
Sometimes we, err, I, lose sight of how important love is. What I mean is that often those feelings of pain and worry can shroud the good stuff. I catch myself saying negative things, and bitching about this and that, then realize how silly it is to be picking apart everything when mostly stuff is damned good and not actually bad at all! What the hell is that, anyways?! It's gotta stop. I need to be more conscious of all the positive aspects of my experiences, and express them as such. It's amazing what results can come when you simply change the energy you put out into the world, even if you only change it a little bit...
As my dearest Roseanne Roseannadanna says, "It just goes to show ya, it's always something!"
XOXO,
M.M.
