I've been carrying around so much baggage for so many years. Piles of Mount Everest's worth of guilt over my poor choices and sins. Not all were malicious, and in fact most were out of naivety, but none-the-less they have been a massive burden to bear, and something I have really fought to come to terms with. These past three years have especially been a point of reflection for me. I've been trying to grasp all of these moments in my life in order to discover the meaning behind them. How each one of these choices have led me here, in this moment, to you. And I think back at the time when we met - I was just out of my worst break-up ever, and going through one of the worst times I can ever remember - and there have been plenty of bad ones to choose from, believe me. But you popped into my world, and were sweet, and cute, and young, and fresh. Here we are more than 5 years later, after being friends for so long. I want to tell you all of these things that you have yet to know about me, about my past, about all of these awful and tragic things... but you make me feel so good and happy. For once I feel as though I can leave the past behind because you like me for who I am now, and that's all that bad stuff was meant to do anyways. I hope you know that every smile you give me erases a million frowns. And every time you make me laugh, you take away a million tears. No matter what the future holds, I want you to know that you can trust me to always do right by you. I will be honest with you about everything you could ever want to know, and I will tell you when I have something I think you need to hear. Because I am done making mistakes. This time I want to do things right. I hope you can accept me for who I am and all of these stupid flaws. I am so incredibly far from perfect, but I promise that I will always do my best to make you happy...
XOXO,
M.M.
